Insideout

Life is strange. And maybe that is why it is worth living. Presence of Mandar in Indira's life is definitely not what she was expecting from her life. And her involvement in him somehow made her realize about her uncertain mind too. I always wonder how human being makes any decision. I mean, how many times in life are you 100% sure of what you are doing? How many times all the solutions are ready in our mind? Human mind mostly works of guesses, judgments, hunches, and confidence takes care of the rest. We all are aware of the starting, some of us know the end too but the journey from ' the start to an end' is never known. Never.  Indira too is oblivious of the turns her life can take. And whether she accepts it or not Mandar is what she is looking for but is not ready for at the moment. She knows it! Will she let her fears go? Will she give herself another chance? Will Mandar respect her love the way she wants? Does she have anything else hidde...

Living in a constantly troubling fear about life, intentions of the people, unknown intentions of her own mind; her list is very long! Indira is the person who was brought up by her parents and surrounding people with instructions, both said and unsaid from, which made her think 'I have to be perfect and good' no matter what happens! She has been trying to be a good person and even a good citizen since then! Hardly did she know that so many 'goods' will confine her life to limited thoughts, opportunities, choices, and decisions too! Her efforts to be 'a good person' soon transformed into a struggle, which she herself could not understand for years. Even now, she will not claim, she 'knows it all'! But she is trying to know and trying not to label her own self, or else it will be the 'get set' point of another struggle and she knows it! 'Struggle'! This word broke her chain of thoughts and she was back in real time. ...

Big banyan tree near one of the affluent residential areas in the city called Silver Cloud(SC), is the place she loves to be around. Whenever she is too meet anybody, known or a  stranger, she would ask to meet here. She left home early in the evening, she wanted to be there before he arrives. No, she was not dying to meet him; she just wanted to absorb the sanity, peace, beauty, and firmness of that tree, alone. She did not want anybody else to share that moment with her. She reached SC, and the tree was visible to her. "ओढ ओढ म्हणतात ती हीच, तुझ्या असण्याचा भास संपताना, तू दिसल्याची खुण पटणं" She blushed and felt a shiver within her when these lines crossed her mind. "Indu dear, you bitch, don't get off balance" she warned herself. She was sitting quietly threr for 20-30 min. And she saw Mandar approaching her. "Do whatever you want, just dont look into my eyes thebway you do" , she warned him in her mind. But Mandar is a guy who is...